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Inside the Poetry
Juvenile-adj.: young, youthful; not yet an adult
Delinquent-adj.: neglecting to do what is required
" A piece Of Mind"
You label me,
Judge Me-
You don't even know me
I lie, I do steal,
And sometimes, I don't even
Feel real,
You can sentence me,
Probate me,
Shake your heads in disbelief,
Disgust,
You can cuff me,
Not believe me
And pollute my life
You never felt the pain
Inside me, when I grabbed that knife,
You can diagnose me,
Entrap me,
Even rape my mind
Behind that gavel,
You haven't the right to decide
The person that I am,
Behind that badge,
You couldn't conceive these words
You can't lock up these thoughts
You don't even see that what is wrong to you,
Is the only way to survive to me
You don't do your job in an honorable way
And that makes you the delinquent
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May 22, 1999 Saturday
All night I had nightmares of mom. She was screaming and hitting me. I woke up terrified. I looked around the house, so relieved to see she was gone.Must have went shopping. She thinks she can change the world with her wisdom.Well, I do love her, I just resent her a lot more. Why do I even try?
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June 11,1999 Friday
My friend's going out with my ex-boyfriend. Strange how it all works out. I have to start seeing my therapist every 2 weeks. How fun.
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May 29,1999 Saturday
I'm so tired from last night. We all got so drunk and couldn't stop laughing. My friend's boyfriend stopped by and we ended up passed out at this lady's house. I feel really bad, I keep thinking that she knows. She told me how obsessed with him she was. She said she waited for him to call at 12:30 a.m, but he couldn't...he was with me all night. We didn't do anything. Just got drunk all night.
June 5,1999 Saturday
I've been at my friend's partying, and we went to a bowling alley, it was really boring-but who cares when you're that drunk??? I can't even remember what I did...I should really cut back, it's really messing me up. Well, maybe later. We're all suppose to go to a club tonight.
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June 12,1999 Saturday
I had plans to go to this pool party,but I got out of it, because, well, there was better things for me to do. |
Senses
.I watch you,
From a distance
I hear you,
Even when you don't speak
I feel you,
Though you are no where around
I loved you,
I could never tell you
I want-
-to devour your being
-to dissect you mind
Like a school project
I just sit there,
Though you are close enough to touch
I need you,
Even when you rip off my petals of
Insecurities
I brush dog hair from your back
As you laugh
Never noticing the touch
I smile for you,
You looked away
I could-
-dissolve your doubts
-entwine you in flesh
I speak to you,
It goes unheard
And my heart
Shredded
Like a spider's web.
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